To N

I don't know you yet. You are shrouded in so much mystery, a mystery that unearths every uncertainty, every fear, every temptation to dismiss the promise of you. 

And yet, you are being formed in the heavenlies. Somehow you are the missing piece to the puzzle of my experience although I'm not yet aware of it. 

You are a mysterious gift, stored in heaven. Who are you? What will you become? Will you love me? Will you hate me? Will you love God? What is your future? 

And yet in your formation, all the answers and more are wrought. In the deep waters of your inmost being, lie the cry of my heart, the culmination of a promise, the climax of a healthy marriage, a restoration of much lost.

In your waters, lies my new whole self. A redeemed woman, a confident man, a changed world.

Who are you? What will become of you? 

You are known by God, beginning to end, cell to cell, breath to breath. You are a handmade gift.

Pray for us N. Within your chromosomes lie an unexpected and not-yet-experienced joy. But also pain. But also loss. But also unknown. So pray for us N. Would the prayers prayed over you and through you, ready us to receive you. 

Expand us O God. In the enlarging, remove quenching weeds, writhing for space, for air, for significance. 

N, would your spirit be thicker than your mitochondrial age. Would your stature be built by the same waters the spirit of God hovered over "in the beginning." Would you teach us nuances of God we couldn't have known without you. Would you reveal the Face of glory the world has yet to see.

What will your unique contribution be? Will you change nations? Will you level cities? Will you love or heal? 

And yet already in the recesses of your being, all these answers lie and more. Would your spirit be expansive beyond your years. Would you be our teacher, our friend; even while we parent you, would God parent us through you. 

N, I declare that even in the midst of my doubts, fears, the face of your mystery, I want you. I am beginning to know you and already...I'm in awe.